I stumbled across books on meditation while I was searching for the meaning of life. Meditation seemed like a good idea. Inner peace and mental discipline? Sign me up.
I put my book down and closed my eyes. My mind raced. I tried to slow the activity. My thoughts grew louder and came at me from all directions. I focused on my breathing. A blur of images, voices, memories whipped around me. The whirlwind engulfed me.
What a bad idea
I tossed the book across the room in frustration. Now I was agitated. Where was the inner peace? Meditating had put me in a worse mood than before I’d started. Well, that was a bad idea.
Meditation is not for me
I put aside my ideas about meditation. The philosophy was still interesting, but I’d leave the Zen mindset to the Buddhist monasteries. Maybe one day I could sit on a hillside, eat grass and barricade myself against the outside world. Until then, Zen obviously was not for me.
Someone wiser than me
One day, a friend asked me how my meditation was going. I told him that it didn’t work. “You tried meditating once?” He asked. I explained that I had tried several times over a period of a few days. “A few days?” Yes, maybe a week. Long enough to realize that doesn’t work on me.
He stared at me. What? “Try again.” No! It puts me in a bad mood which, obviously, defeats the purpose. And it will probably give me a headache.
“If you could meditate after a few tries you’d be discovering a new religion.” Oh. So, how much time does this take? Stop staring. “Things are easy for you aren’t they?” Wow, how could I be so misunderstood? Looking back, I see what he meant.
Living in discomfort
Sometimes when things are uncomfortable, it means we should stay with them. Push through the pain and keep going. Stay focused. Change is never easy. If something is hard for you, it might mean that it’s exactly what you should be doing.
Live with the discomfort. Breathe through it. Pain is a function of meaningful change. You’re creating a deeper level of understanding. Your beautiful life is ready for a new dimension. Dive in!